She let the
car warm up while she fumbled with her tapes. Her stepdad’s
new car had both a tape deck and a CD player, which was either
unnecessary or really cool, she couldn’t decide. She was
amazed when he bought it. He had driven the same Volkswagen Rabbit
he’d had since grad school until last year when he bought
the Saab. Marnie had never driven a car so solid and clean before
without the overbearing feeling of how much it would cost if she
actually bought it. She didn’t really like cars, but she
couldn’t ignore the harmony of the thing, which she might
have called sublime if it weren’t a consumer product, though
the little buttons on the stereo were definitely not designed
for gloved fingers. She stuck a tape in, pressed rewind, backed
out into the snow, and winced as the garage door roared awake,
descending. It was snowing harder than she’d thought. The
porchlights caught a wide globe of flakes blowing through. She
turned the wheels and the snow groaned and wrinkled under the
tires, sounding like something heavy and glass being dragged across
rubber. She straightened out and pulled forward slowly through
the tire tracks in the snow that had softened and rounded with
the extra snowfall. The tape player had some sort of auto-detect
feature, and right as she got to the end of the driveway and checked
for traffic coming down Stadium, it clunked to a stop and began
playing The Book of Love. It surprised Marnie, and she
stopped the car. The engine purred and the heater hushed as the
opening notes resonated. Inside the car it smelled of leather
and wool and stale heater air. She watched the snow in the headlights
for a second and then ejected the tape. She didn’t want
to think about Aaron. She pulled out of the driveway.
The town was deserted. She put a CD from her
stepdad’s 5-disk Pablo Casals set, and the music seemed
to carry the car through the snow, under the pale orange street
lights, past the gigantic U of M stadium, and past Marnie’s
high school into the quiet, dark streets of the Old West Side.
She followed the familiar sequence of her favorite houses and
trees on the route to Derek’s. She always thought his block
was a little more raggedy and un-bourgeois than the rest, and
his house was the most endearing on the block, not just because
she knew the extensive history of its perpetual remodeling. As
soon as she spotted Derek on his porch, underdressed for the cold
as usual, Marnie snapped out of it and realized that she never
called to say she was close. He saw her and dodged inside to turn
off the porchlight and grab a hat. Derek jumped down the steps
and ran up to the car. Marnie leaned over to open the door for
him, and he came in with a blast of cold wind and snow and a big
smile.
He plopped into the deep passenger seat and
pulled his hat off. “Hi!” he said, still smiling.
Marnie put her hand on the parking brake but
didn’t release it and looked at him. They’d seen each
other twice in the last two years, but the time between visits
always felt both longer and shorter than it really was. “Hi,”
she said, sounding relieved in a way.
They reached over and hugged tight. He was wearing
the same black felted-wool coat his dad used to wear when they
were in high school. He got it as a hand-me-down the winter before,
and they agreed that it made him look much older. She scrunched
her nose between his collar and his hair and hugged him half-again,
harder, and they let go.
“So good to see you!”
“Yeah.”
She released the brake and they drove off. |
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